welp... school starts soon and i am soooo sad because of it.  i didn't do much of anything at all this summer ... i feel like i wasted it waiting around the house trying to figure out what i was going to do ... argh!!  well i have like a week to fix all that ... maybe i can do it ... lets hope so.   so yeah you know who's leaving to go back to school soon ... and i'm not ready to let him go. ... but i don't want to talk about that cause all it does is make me depressed and then i start crying ... *not a pretty picture* ... hmmm ... yeah trying to get a parking pass tomorrow ... hopefully i can get one . yeah ... also keep your fingers crossed that i can get a job *hopefully at the cozy inn... i would love to play with the dogs all day* yeah .. today alex and i went to the mall and got like a total of like 6 applications ... and 2 places that were out but took my name and junk. but yeah ... idk ... i guess that's all for now ..... oooooo  "omg it's polka dot day" is on tuesday ... not that anyone cares or anything .. just thought that you would want to know *ahhh i'm so retarded* ok ... that's it .. i promise

*~*me*~*

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh    i just figured it out ... my life is supposed to be a rollercoster ... it's "fun" that way .... but it's not one of the fun one's that are at kennywood ... but the kind that right when it's getting good and exciting ... it drops off .. and crashes .. and i don't make it out all the time .... every once in awile ... i catch on to something .. and get to hang on until i get back in the cart ... but this time ... i don't know if i'm gonna be that lucky .... if i am ... then this should end up being the best ride ever made .... hopefully ... i'll have that perfect someone riding along with me. *i love you baby boy* but yeah .. that's my wacked out symbolism for the day .... ahhhh when i get nice and old and crusty *eww* (after alex and i write out book) i'm writing myself a really long book ... that people will actually want to read *people other than family and friends*  and then ... it'll be good times. 

we're going up the lake for the 4th ... we're leaving either friday night .. or early saturday morning ... we'll be back probally late monday. (we'll be back on monday .. i'm just not sure what time we'll be leaving) ...  i'm looking forward to spending more time with my grandparents .. it gets boring sometimes ... being stuck with just relitives all weekend (the locals .. or hoopies as we call them... are just plain scary ... lots of them don't have all there teeth *ewww*) so yeah ... i'm hoping that it'll be good .. and we're the only family there other than my grandparents ... otherwise ... we're probally gonna end up sleeping outside int he tent .. which isn't a bad thing cause i like camping .. but it's annoying waking up with a million bug bites .. and the people up there don't go to bed until like 3 on the july 4th weekend. but i don't know ... i'll tell ya what happened while i was there when i get back ... but until then ... luv yall *insert smilie* (mine won't work)

*~*me*~*

ps i think that this is one of the longest entries that i've ever written ... wow